Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Virtual Guilt

For the 10th time in about two weeks someone who I've never met has tried to guilt me into some action. Tonight it was a follow-up on a friend request on myspace. I happen to be obscenely busy at the moment, and this person, who I'm sure is a wonderful human being and worthy of friends/rewards/success in her life and whom I have never had face-to-face or even online contact before, sent me a message basically trying to guilt me into adding her as a friend. Now, that generally makes me want to deny the request, but I replied honestly with my jam-packed life details and said I'd reconsider. Here I am reconsidering; I feel guilty enough that I don't get to spend enough time with my girlfriend and family and real-world friends, let alone with myself, so online guilt trips from strangers just don't rank in comparison. Sorry. Call me a virtual bitch, but that's how my loyalties shake out at the moment. If I'd been asked for advice, I probably would have carved out the time to reply from my precious limited supply. But for a rebuke? Forget it.



On a brighter note, the things I'm busy with are writing jobs. And I think I've figured out how to be in the same place at the same time as my sweetie, and even some of my family. ;-) L.A. is looking up, now that it's not burning a mile away from my apartment.

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

R.I.P. Dyke TV

Dyke TV logo



I am sad to see it go: Dyke TV is off the airwaves for good. (Who knows how long that link will work...?)



I watched Dyke TV from its ambitious riotous start because I came out of the closet at the same time as this amazing television venture was hitting the public access airwaves in NYC. I learned how to be a lesbian by watching (my herstory, the lesbian avengers' escapades, queer filmmakers, politics, news, I was a lesbian child, trans issues), and came to love it for so much more.



Dyke TV is the place where I learned basic camera work and Final Cut Pro; I made fantastic friends and launched a film career. "The D Word" was born at a producer's meeting. While I was only involved for a short time, the organization and people gave back to me threefold what I contributed. For that, I'll be forever grateful.



Where else are you going to get "Television to Incite, Subvert, Provoke, and Organize!" ?



R.I.P. Dyke TV
1993-2007

Friday, May 4, 2007

1,000 words

So much has been happening lately, lets just go mostly with the pictures, since I'm short on the 1,000+ words to describe it all.



This is a view from inside the new building at MICA (Maryland Institute College of the Arts) on opening night of the MD Film Festival. Dig the onlooking reflected posters.
Poster faces in the hall of MICA
Why the inside of MICA? Because of these three gentlemen:


Leon, Dan & Nathaniel
Leon Fleisher, Dr. Daniel Drachman and Nathaniel Kahn - all key players in the making of "Two Hands," which was one of the opening night shorts.



This trip back had happy things: the MD Film Fest and visiting family, like my cousin Emerie, who is doing a rousing job staring in the ensemble of Arena Stage's "The Heidi Chronicles."




emerie's headshot



And my two sweeties together:



sonora & orpheus lounge in the office



It also had sad things, like the memorial for my beloved theater professor Joe Patenaude.



This is the door to Joe's office at Drew University.



Joe's Door w/Joe...



This is some of my fellow theatre arts alumni - notice how they taught half of us to keep our eyes closed for the photograph.



Dan, the Gov & Alumni



My favorite republican, Gov. Tom Kean & I... The first student show he saw as prez was my first play, "Gaijin." We've had a mutual admiration society going on ever since.



Me & the Gov




It was healing, though, to walk on the campus again and see the beautiful new Arts building - of which I'm totally jealous (we had to rough it in The Commons, a blackbox, and Bowne, a converted gymnasium).



Dorothy Young Center for the Arts



From Drew's college in the forest, to Baltimore's oddities...



noodly_hon



Filling up on the East Coast to last me a while on the West.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Q-Me Con 2007 pics

I know I'm a week late in posting about the fabulous Q-Me Con 2007 weekend, so to mollify the crowds, some pics:


Writer's Panel 3
Here I am moderating the writer's panel with Andrew Barrett, Eric Orner & Alex Kondracke (not pictured: Daniel Vaillancourt, Q. Allan Brocka)
MW & I (hokey)
Here I am goofing it up with the hottest attendee/panelist at the conference, Michelle Wolff



I renewed old connections and made new ones. As I told some press last year, it's like the filmmakers lounge of a film festival only without the films. Good parties, interesting panels, fun folks.



Can't wait for next year.

Saturday, April 7, 2007

Q-Me Con 2007

QMeCon 2007 in L.A.


I had a great time as a panelist @ the inaugural Queer Media Conference in NYC last year. Q-Me Con seems to have followed me to L.A. this year, and so I'll welcome it to the West Coast as a fellow transplant and be a moderator. Come watch/hear/cheer me as I sling questions to well-qualified queer panelists.



See you there...!



From Comic Books to Pitching Scripts: Insider Tips on Creating and Selling Queer Written Work
Saturday, April 14, 2007 - 3:45-5pm
Inside Track  - Davidson/Valentini Theatre
The Village at Ed Gould Plaza
1125 N. McCadden Place
Los Angeles, CA  90038



With
the explosion of original queer content currently hitting the air
waves, the silver screens, the book stores and the broadband pipelines
-- how can queer content creators continue to forge ahead with
exploring the complex lives and experiences of queer characters? Join a
varied panel of noted writers, as they share success stories, delve
into the obstacles content creators face, explore the pressures of
accurate LGBTQ representation and share their thoughts on the future of
original queer content.


Panelists
Andrew Barrett, Staff Writer, Showtime’s "Sleeper Cell"
Q. Allan Brocka, Writer/Director, "Boy Culture" and "Eating Out;" Creator, Logo's "Rick & Steve the Happiest Gay Couple in all the World"
Alex Kondracke, Writer, "The L Word"
Eric Orner, Creator, “The Mostly Unfabulous Social Life of Ethan Green”
Dasha Snyder, (moderator) Writer/Producer; Contributor, AfterEllen.com & Velvetpark Magazine
Daniel Vaillancourt, Co-Vice Chair, Gay & Lesbian Writers Committee, WGA America West

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Silver Lining

Sitting in the ER in the middle of the night, staring up at the fluorescent lighting of the exam room at this:



hospital clouds
Not the storm clouds it felt like at first; they turned into the silver lining of the ordeal.



Hospitals, both animal and human, are not where I want to spend any time with loved ones. I have a complicated and unhappy association with them. I'm usually there for painful reasons. TV commercials would have you believe that everyone walks out of their institution with a new lease on life. Sometimes people do. I've been that lucky person before, but it's not the norm in my experience. Some things about hospitals and their environs seem universal, though:
- They all smell of antiseptic and illness.
- Not known for beauty lighting.
- Magnets for the best and worse human impulses.



I've had the misfortune of being around them a lot lately - for my back, for my cat, and for my sweetie. Some other universalities struck me in this setting:
- The power of touch to comfort.
- The habit of hiding pain from our loved ones.
- The terrifying vulnerability of bodies and emotions.



And lessons that keep on getting learned:
- Kindness is a necessity.
- The "right thing to do" is never so apparent as such.
- Err on the side of Love.



Silver linings aren't cheap or easy by any measure, but they're there...

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Little Girl Gone

R.I.P.
Persephone Snyder
(aka Percy-poo, Tushy Girl, Purrrrr-sephone)
1995-2007



Persephone in her little MushroomSweet Face
Persephone as a kittenOrpheus & Persephone overlooking Amsterdam Avenue
Persephone on her feetPersephone in Sonora's arms



I have a penchant for goldfish. I was browsing the goldfish at my local Mom & Pop pet store when I overheard the owner and a patron discussing the new kitten someone had found. In those days, people brought neighborhood strays to Pete, the owner, and he'd get them checked out by his vet friend in New Jersey, then adopt them out of his store for $10 to cover his gas money.



He described discovering a scrawny kitten alone in the basement of the corner bodega. Apparently she was separated from or abandoned by the mother and litter and had been scratching through the food stored down there to survive. She squinted constantly, as she'd never seen the light of day before they plucked her up from the depths.



I listened intently to the tale, having lost all interest in goldfish. I had been ruminating over the possibility of getting a second cat to keep Aesop, my pound-rescue-first-cat-ever, company while I was off at work. I asked Pete if I could see the kitten.



He went down into the store's basement and emerged cradling a mass of fur in one hand. She was that small and bony and terrified. I took her into my hands and she immediately curled herself up in a ball, tucking her head into the crook of my neck, eyes jammed shut. I told Pete I'd take her, but wanted a second opinion, so I ran home and dragged my girlfriend up Amsterdam to check out this quivering feline. She fell in love instantly, too.



It was the first day of Spring 1995. This frightened little princess, who had been trapped in the Underworld, was brought up into the light, bringing with her the Vernal Equinox and a lot of sunshine into our lives. How could I _not_ name her Persephone [per-sef-uh-nee]?



Remember that Greek Myth? Persephone, the fair daughter of Demeter, Goddess of the Harvest/Earth/Grain, was out picking flowers one day when Hades, God of the Underworld, opened the Earth and swept her down into his depths to make her his Queen of the Dead. Demeter was inconsolable without her daughter by her side, and mourned angrily, wreaking Winter on the land; no one would harvest fruit or joy while Demeter was without her beloved girl. The people of the land cried out starving and Demeter pleaded with Zeus, Persephone's father, to wrest the girl from his errant brother Hades. While down in the Underworld, Persephone refused to eat but reluctantly served as the dark Queen, welcoming the newly dead below. Hades enticed her to eat some Pomegranate seeds, and she finally did. When Hermes arrived, a messenger of Zeus to return Persephone to her mother, the terrible truth that Persephone could no longer be of either world permanently, was realized. Persephone, having eaten the fruit of death, could only return to Demeter for 8 months. Because she had eaten 4 Pomegranate seeds, she had to return to the Underworld and Hades for 4 months. It is those 4 months when Demeter mourns and brings Winter upon the land, then rejoices when the Earth opens up again and delivers her daughter home, bringing Spring and blossoming anew.



My Persephone came from the bowels of New York City on the first day of Spring 1995 and left us just as Spring has sprung in 2007. She was always a scaredy cat, preferring the comfort and safety of dark places and the security of night's shadows. It took her many years to stop squinting so much in the daylight and fully enjoy the comfort of humans. She was my constant companion through illness & health and taught me patience and good cheek scratches. She's with Aesop, her true love, now. Her little brother Orpheus (whom the mythical Persephone welcomed to the Underworld) is walking around the apartment meowing at all her hiding places, confused and cranky. Her humans are doing the same.